Monday, September 15, 2008

To Delete or Not to Delete...

Hello again. It's been a while. I've got a lot of excuses, but I won't even bother with them, as I'm sure I haven't really been holding up world progress. Who are "you" anyway? Just me, I'm assuming. I love how my habit of talking to myself is creeping over into my writing. Lovely. I'm feeling a strange connection to my dead grandmother about now. She had Alzheimer's the entirety of our acquaintance.

So I'm back in Utah. In school. In a basement apartment. Still married. I have a bike. My favorite zipper to my favorite jeans broke. I've made some shiny new friends. Mark still makes the bed into a taco at night. And I have Internet. That about sums the recent happenings.

Oh, and we went on a Zombie Bike ride on Saturday. That was fun. Here's a few pictures.



So today I visited this blog after many weeks of being away, and I felt strangely self-conscious. I almost deleted it and I still want to and I'm wondering why it was ever a good idea to post pictures of myself in daily outfits and give tours of my medicine cabinet. I'm thinking about all the people who stumble across this blog (all three of them...) and I'm blushing. I feel exposed. I feel dumb. I feel self-conscious.

The blogasphere is such a funny place. It's like a exhibitionist's party. Burning Man comes to mind. And it's so easy for people like me to peek through the crowd and observe it all. But vicarious living looses it's thrill quickly and the next thing you know, you're emulating. Inspired, you- or I, as it seems- find myself dancing on the table. And then the music stops...

Awkward moment.

So here is my awkward moment. Should I get down off the table? Should I creep back through the crowd and find a dark corner somewhere? Should I just leave altogether and go home to my white walls and the air-mattress that me and Mark sleep on because it creates more of a hill-valley scenario than a taco?

Nope. Next song, please. I've still got some dancing to do.

7 comments:

ryan & stacy said...

Hey Angie, the zombie pics were so great I had to comment. Its crazy, don't know if I could pull it off, but looks like it was a lot of fun. I hope you enjoy Utah.

Melissapher said...

YAY. I'm so glad you're not deleting your blog. I really enjoy pictures of your fabulous outfits. You're so stylish, I could definitely take some cues from you.

I wish I had been at the zombie bike ride. I'm just itching for any excuse to ride my bike.

Shannon said...

I am so disturbed by your zombiness! What in the world? It's too early for halloween, so what am I missing? Is it a UTAH thing?

Gritty Pretty said...

hi angie! after the dog incident i caught up and saw you give the los hermanos crowd a memory they'll never forget. all the waiters were running to the windows to watch the zombie parade. thanks for making me laugh so hard!
i love your blog and am glad that you're still "dancing on the table".
xo,
quel

emmarae said...

def shouldn't delete your blog...ever...you write amazingly...i don't care what it is about, i love reading it...and looking at the outfits as well...
emma

Erica said...

zombie ride. geez, how did i miss that? wow, next time girl, next time. and btw, we need to get together real soon.

Bri and Adam said...

Don't you dare...